If I had said, “I will speak thus,” I would have betrayed your children. Psalm 73:15 (NIV)
Asaph was saying, “If I had followed where my confused thoughts were taking me, I would have let everybody down. I would have become the Judas of the Old Testament. I would have betrayed your children.” Asaph doesn’t want to go there, and so he takes himself in hand.
Imagine spending a few days away, and the place where you are staying is off the main road. So you arrive in the evening and it is pitch dark. You know how this goes: “Isn’t it up there on the right?”
“No, I think this is it. Turn here.”
“I’m pretty sure it’s a little bit farther.”
Well, now you are a mile down the road, and it’s become pretty clear that there are no more turns on the right. And somebody says, “I’m pretty sure it’s back there.”
“Yes, I know. I’m just looking for a place to turn around.” But the road is narrow, and with no houses or driveways, it’s pretty hard to turn around.
There are some places in life where turning around isn’t easy. You’ve been looking for a nice easy opening where you can swing your life around, but you can’t find one. That’s how it was for Asaph. “My feet had almost slipped,” he says. He needed to turn his life around.
Think of a time when you had to stop the direction you were headed spiritually and turn around. What made it so hard for you to do?